“Bhai tu kitna slow hai”
“Why do you take so much time to get ready?”
Ughh, shut up already. These are things that people say to me but these are also things I say to myself. Being slow in a world that is constantly on its toes, doing things at a pace I find difficult to comprehend.
I don’t even know why there is a need for this hurry. Like I get you have things to do but slow down a little bit.
You know I think a lot, like A LOT, so even when I am getting ready to leave for somewhere I usually take up a lot of time. Lately, I have become better at it though but yes I’m still learning and trying to become better.
Also I get really jealous of people who are able to do it all and at such good speed. I feel left out. Deep down I know that they still feel insecure after doing so much, which frankly is very unfortunate because look at them! But it’s okay, you have to know that everyone is capable of achieving some great shit in life so there’s no issue there.
The thing about thinking too much is that you zone out. I mean, I zone out like 20 times a day. Or maybe a little less than that or maybe more.
When I’m studying- say solving a question. I would forget what I was doing, I would make the silliest mistake and I start fretting over it. A lot of the blame also goes to the dwindling attention spans we all have right now. As it turns out, speedy one-minutey content didn’t hurry up our growth.
Sometimes my parents also tell me that I’m being very slow at a given task, they also mean the best but in all of this, my self-confidence also takes a hit. I find it daunting to get over this feeling.
This blog piece was actually a rant only, I don’t want to intellectualise much but I do want to say that go easy on yourself.
This is an interesting topic to discuss actually, let’s talk in the comments!