Hi, this is my first time writing on a public platform but I decided to do this since recently I have been introspecting a bit I guess.
So I’m currently in my third year (technically it starts in a week) of the IPM program at a big IIM. For those of you who are not aware of IIMs, they are like the IITs of engineering but for management. I honestly can’t believe I’ve finished 2 years already but more than that I can’t believe how much I’ve changed.
I was not an easy teenager to deal with. Not in the sense that I was doing bad things but more like I didn’t know what I wanted to do in life after 12th and I refused to think or decide about it since I was scared of making a wrong choice so, my parents told me to prepare for competitive exams and I agreed since well, if I disagreed what else would I do? I know I had/have the potential to do well, scored really well for my 10th and 12th boards and even now I would say I am scoring pretty well. The only concern was my lack of ambition for the future.
I’ll be honest, I did hold some grudges against my parents for deciding my future plan for me but looking back, what else could they do? They did what they thought was best and that’s alright
Now, I was an angsty 17 year old and I wanted to get away from home so yes I applied for all these big colleges, all of them which were outside my hometown and finally settled on an IIM. The first year, I spent at home itself because of covid but I left for college in the second year and its like realization suddenly hit. I met some amazing people at college who have been my support through all the tough times and have become like family but at the same time, I terribly missed the people I left behind at home.
I am currently at home for my 2 month year break but I have to leave in a week and I can’t help but think would the passage of time be different if I had chosen a different path? What if I was more decisive and had chosen for myself what I wanted to do in life? What if I had chosen a college in my hometown itself?
At the end of the day, I know I have a great opportunity right now at my college but I don’t know, sometimes I just get emotional for the life that could’ve been. I know this may seem like a random post and yes it is, I just had to get my thoughts out in the open.
Thank you for reading and if you have similar feelings, I would love to hear from you too 🙂