Life becomes hell when you feel disappointed in your failures. I failed many times in my life by doing things that I was unfit and incapable of achieving them. I realized my true potential after spending hours and days of my life in persistent struggle.
I hustled a lot in my life. My life was not so easy to survive and succeed. I have begun my struggling days with the hope of doing something for myself and my family.
In my way, so many obstacles or blocks kept me distracted and sometimes thrown away from reaching goals. Despite all its failed attempts, I persisted in my struggle in every difficult phase of my life. I relate my obstacles to some of my family members, relatives, friends, and outsiders.
Life will never spare anyone. It gives you plenty of options and choices. In many instances of life, your patience is tested on the reality ground. There will be a time when you have to go hungry to feed someone. There will also be a time when you have to control your ego, emotions, or feelings and appease someone to gain emotional, physical, and financial support.
Not everyone is fortunate to live a life like a king-size. Not everyone is luckier to be born into an elite or wealthy family. Although I was born in the spacious home of my grandfather, I didn’t feel for a single moment in my life that I am a special child. I should be treated like a VIP’s son.
I never lived a life like a privileged child who is born with a silver spoon. I lived a very normal life like everybody lives in their childhood, going to school, coming home, finishing the homework, and playing with friends. My father’s financial condition was not that good. He was not much earning where he could provide us every comfort and luxury of life.
I didn’t enjoy my childhood days due to many reasons. I lived in a most conservative, narrow-minded, and dominating society where I was harshly judged by my family relatives for my slow learning abilities, weak body, and dull mind.
My mother and father, they don’t feel proud of me even now. If a single child in your family is suffering from dyslexia problems in his schooling times then it is his problem that he needs to deal with it and we cannot do anything. These were the notions perceived by society and my family relatives about me.
The freedom for making decisions of my own and the belief in myself is what I lost very early during my growing years because no one believed in me and that bothered me so much. Everyone in my family presumed that I am a low-confident, innocent, and childish person who cannot do anything in his life.
The image of that “Taare Zameen Par” film Ishant Boy was perfectly placed in their brains about me. Anyhow, what can I expect from those wrongdoers? Now, I am a grown child. I am an adult and matured individual who doesn’t need anyone’s voice to represent me. My early childhood days were not something I would call ‘most memorable and golden days’.
With that being said, I just want to convey two important aspects of life. How tolerant and kind you are towards yourself is what matters to me in my life. When I was brought up in such hypocritical surroundings I was never taught the lessons of compassion, love, tolerance, peace, and kindness. My father never looked after us, never bother about us, and care whether we were studying and eating well or not.
I want to make sure that whatever I am going to convey in this ending part of my writing somewhere awakes the real person within you. I don’t want my child to suffer the way I have gone through. I suppose that as my father didn’t get that kind of attention, love, and support from his father, he never treated us well in a healthy manner.
I will never do that to my kid. I will raise my child in such nurturing environment where he will get love, emotional, spiritual, and financial support from me. I will never tell my child to score higher grades in his studies so that he could get admission to the best schools, colleges, and universities. I will tell him, beta, you do whatever you want in your life. If you fail also, there is no end path. The world is full of opportunities.
If you don’t want to become a scientist or engineer, it’s okay, be something that you are too good at. I will certainly bring the best out of him. I will support you in every possible way of life. I will do anything to fulfill his dreams. No matter how many times you fail, what matter to me is how you have come out of it. My child will not live a life like mine.
My boy will enjoy his childhood days. He will have so many friends in his school. He will participate in extra-curriculum activities. He will be doing a lot of mischievous around his leisure time but he will also be an honest, truthful, and disciplined boy. All fun and loving moments of life he will live with full contentment.
All that I didn’t get a chance to do in my life; he will do those things too. I don’t want my child to experience the pain and suffering that I went through. I will give him the happiness of life by being his friend, mentor, and spiritual teacher.