The night was dark when I sat in the court of the Almighty. My tears were flowing unstoppable and I couldn’t stop my hiccups with the fear of the world. I was crying, I could not find myself anywhere and it was a very strange thing for me. When I observed my life completely there was an absence of aim. I got an idea that if I do something great or high there is a possibility to explore the world and people as my wish. Certain things that I always want in my life.
Achieve the highest ranks in educational institutions and to engage with social and political activities. It was true that I cannot become an activist but then I think that I cannot be an activist but can be a writer.
Since childhood, I want to be a big person in life who has fame, wealth and a luxurious life. And I believe such kind of wishes and dreams everyone has. It is common, but the few have a burning desire for these things and they pursue it. But some who understand the meaning of real life, they will never run for it. Exactly it happened to me when I came to understand the things that fame really does not matter to me now. But the comfort life I want where there is no tension of paying rents, and getting facilities for higher education. And especially something that I can do for my parents, at least they should get some rest from struggles and sacrifices.
When I understand the importance of my life it’s not about me only. One’s life is always connected with many people indirectly. When you come into this world by the wish of God and will die from this world by the wish of God. Then he definitely selected our life for some different purposes.
The way was full of struggles and difficulties in the beginning, then it became easier. The Almighty blesses me with a great idea of unity to unite the people of India. It is a very unique purpose for me. As I grew up I learned that many new things and was able to understand the difference between the correct and incorrect path, the difference between the right and wrong people. Life is all about ” Karma”, like a circle, what will do that will get.
I tried many times to published my articles in different newspapers but I failed, on my last birthday I wrote in my diary that I will serve my country as much as I can. In the form of writing articles on YKA, raising my voice for truth, injustice and for unity are my responsibility as a citizen of Democratic and Secular country. Today on my birthday, again I am able to write what I want, I can do it. It is possible if you are self confident about it. After writing many articles I realised that writing is the best way to raise voice and to develop a country in literacy.
On every birthday I celebrate my birthday, but from the last I am celebrating my birthday as Self – Changing day. Because as years pass I am improving. Last year I was unaware that I will write articles and share my opinion with the people. But on this birthday I am sharing my experience or opinion regarding self changing. We don’t know anything about it further so always be humble.
That the moments of dark night change me completely, today I have aim and goal to live life. Every second day I wanted to suicide or not live. Because my life had no aim and any goal to live. And it is a very fortunate thing I enjoyed my childhood and at the right time I learnt the meaning and objective of life. But that period of depression and stress make me a very active person in life.
Life cannot be changed but the decision taken in minutes changed everything in life. It always seems impossible but the one who starts by doing what is necessary then nothing seems impossible. The one who is not enough to take risks in life, will accomplish nothing in life.
As life is going by the grace of Almighty and I am very happy and enjoying whatever I am doing. Today wherever I stand because of Almighty, he pushes me every single day for the goal. Whenever I fall, I stand again on my feet only because of the Almighty. When you balance your life between religion and the world, truly it is a very beautiful life. If the one who is doing this.
I find myself in one word and that is ” Happiness”. For me also, I was surprised when I got it for the first time in my mind. But it is true, it defines and shows me in various ways for whom I am happiness. I wish for the future, I also become happiness and smile for the people of my motherland.
Find yourself in one word ! It is really an amazing trick. Try it for once!