Let’s talk about how hard it is to be around everyone, to be surrounded by your family members and still crave for that one person who never wanted to be with you. Don’t you think it is heartbreaking to think about only one person, but get nothing in return? A heavy heart filled with unforgettable memories, love and traces that you have left behind. Starting to talk is one of the hardest things I could ever do because I feel this is the heavest feeling of all.
I am an introverted person craving attention, care and love from all the people I have met in my life at any point. But this is the only thing that leaves me worthless and hopeless every time.
Loving someone is okay but not getting the same love you are pouring is toxic and even extremely toxic for the person who loves wholeheartedly and with all the care. Overthinkers are those who feel things too deeply and are threatened by each and every step of theirs.
My dear overthinker, I know it hurts to feel alone even when you are with everyone. I know it is difficult to control your sentiments and love for anyone. I know it is hard to accept your loneliness but it is okay.
Having people around you who do not consider your sentiments important are not necessary, but teaching yourself each day how to control and balance your emotions with everyone you meet is way more important for living a healthy life.
I am not another person who just writes to be yourself but I am a victim of depression and anxiety for almost three years now. So you know I still feel the need to be with someone I love, not my family obviously, but some kind of attraction, affection, lover. I still face difficulty in forgetting things. I cry overnight, not every night but yes, some nights. Some days are gloomy and my heart aches.
I get attached to the people I vibe with and it makes me feel wanted and worthy. But the main problem with me is that I think deeply, love deeply, care deeply. And I want a deep connection with them and that is not possible.
I am trying to change things within myself that need to be changed, otherwise, it will leave my sentiments hurt and damaged. This was a little glace of my thoughts that I wanted to share with you. It is not the end but this is it for now.
Thank you.