I was a very immature innocent girl of 10 years when I first met the red patches at the back of my pant. Ohh!! It just was a horrible feeling. I remember it was 13 November 2012, the day of Diwali and I was just in 4th standard.
I was a little girl carrying excitement for decorations and crackers of Diwali and I met this new part of my body on that very pious day. I was sitting in my Maruti 800 car listening to music and suddenly got to know about this through a drop coming out of my Vagina.
I was completely in shock at that moment. I wondered what was going with me? What had happened to me ?
I suddenly came out from the car and went to mummy shouting ” Mummy …… Mummy!!”. My mother was in the puja room and I entered there. My grandmother and my aunt were also there. I narrated all my pain and happenings to her. She stood up and by holding my hand took me out from the room.
We came down from upstairs. She took one thread and measured my height and threw it out. She told me to go and take bath and wash my hair as well.
I asked her surprisingly “Why Maa”? She replied me softly “Go dear.”After 15 mins, I came back after taking the bath.
Mummy was ready with something in her hands. It was of white colour. I asked her ” What to do next mummy? “. She told me to wear inner pants along with that white colour thing.
I was in pain, I asked her to give me some medicines but she ignored me.
I asked her about the white colour thing ” What was it?” She told me that “It is a sanitary pad. Now you have to wear it for 5-6 days on every interval of 28-29 days.” Then I replied ” Ohk!! “.
Mummy strictly told me to stay away from all worship works and worship place for these days, she also told me not go into the kitchen.
And because I was in pain, I wasn’t able to ask anything. I just sat in chair all day long under the sun’s rays.
The pain was killing me deeply. I wished to kill myself. So I just closed my eyes and fell asleep. Then during evening mummy sat with me and describes me all those things.
Then I came to know this pious feeling of pain which can only be felt by girls. That pious day gives me this pious feeling of pain of periods. I am blessed. Now this every month’s pain concludes me that I am purifying myself for someone. To make someone smile is the only thing which can possible be done by us.
I am not ashamed of this.
I am feeling proud to share my 3P ( Pious feeling of Pain Of Periods. )
My Red Pain.
Proud to Bleed.
~ JAYANTI GAUTAM