Trigger warning: Suicidal ideation
This write-up talks about the issue of depression/anxiety in today’s youth and how they are trying to deal and get through this phase somehow through hope and positivity.
The write-up is called “Not a suicidal thought” and this is how it goes:
Pain,
This pain in my veins
Is unbearable
There’s a constant agony, a feeling so strange, a voice, my voice, screaming, talking, trying
Explaining things to myself, to others, an urge to just be understood, to let out this sorrow
This sorrow
That drags me down, makes me an insomniac, keeps me covered,
Trying to save from all this misery but instead drowning deep
Going through mini nervous breakdowns and attacks in my head and heart,
Still struggling to not give up yet,
Pretending to feel nothing at all but feeling everything, that’s bad.
Numb,
So numb yet so sensitive,
Just to make it till the end,
To see if it’s really worth going through all the haphazard,
If it’s going to be all fine as they say, this pain, this sorrow, this numbness, me
To live till I die
Just to see if everything happens for a reason and to see myself out of here
So I will,
I will wait,
Patiently, willing, with all my strength and also insecurities
Hopefully to become “me” again,
After all, not all suicidal thoughts will kill you, some just push you to cry to bed,
So you know your will a little more,
Will to wake up tomorrow again.
and wake up tomorrow again.