I am not a psychiatrist. Just a mundane human being, struggling to surpass this phase of Lockdown with a disoriented family which includes a bipolar teenager brother who thinks he is above all, nil to zilch! Social contact, zero experience work from home which I just started by the way and the cherry on the top! Trying to play Tom And Terry with Covid-19. Like, seriously you must know what a sudden sneeze does for the blood pressure level of your parents, a little cough while on the phone results in a series of tonnes of advice, a necessary evil, but also an annoying buzz. And not to forget the fear of the men in battle gears. Sheesh! Those PPE suits give me the creeps.
Well, you can ignore the rant above if you want albeit it is the truth of the fantastic place we call ‘the mind’ of average working from home youth in India. Maybe not all, but certainly is for me.
In the beginning, well, halfway through the second month of lockdown, I had nearly given up. I was done with the un-watched movie list. Gone through numerous e-book novels, tried every possible lockdown recipe on the internet, not really, but had watched nearly all of them. And for my work from home IT job that I had just started before the lockdown, was as frustrating as it could get for a lad from a non-IT background. Coding really wasn’t for me, Argh! And that led to ‘partial’ depression of some sort. I really believed my life was over and now. I had to start working on my appearance so that at least I could land my self a good looking and certainly highly paid husband. Which was a far cry, but a girl has gotta do what she’s gotta do right!
Then by the end of the third month, I started to feel it. Not the sickness, Gosh! Not everything is about Covid – 19 guys! No. I started to feel the change within myself. I realized that in my conquest of perfecting my appearance, I actually did improve myself inside out. Now I had the energy to go through the day without being cranky upon told to any chores around the house, a relief for my mother really! I started ignoring the negativity that is my PM-sing brother and focused more on the positive aspects of life. By the start of the fourth month, Yoga had become an integral part of my life such that I couldn’t go a day without some.
I started some DIY beauty hacks which came in handy since the salons were unavailable. I could literally feel the glow! The most important thing, I had lost weight. Not significantly. But, it was progress.
Then one fine day, I came across certain online courses and start-up ideas. I did some rigorous research and I am well on my way to do some paper works guys!
I certainly have come a fine long way during the Lockdown/Covid-19 era. I have discovered what I really want to do in life which surely does not involve perfecting myself for someone else but ‘one and only’ myself.