Sushant Singh Rajput. The day I woke up to the news of his demise, I was in complete shock. It didn’t seem right, I couldn’t swallow it, something seemed amiss, there was a strong desire for some clarity and the pining for someone to tell me that it’s not true. That never happened.
Why did it affect me so much? I never knew him personally, and when I reflected on it, I realised I had hardly watched any of his films. But I knew of his existence, and that he was a real personality. A thriving young actor, full of life, intelligent, thoughtful, handsome — to just say a few words. It might sound superficial, but I didn’t know him as a person, so I have no right to comment on his personal life or his life as a whole, which surely extended way beyond his films.
His death came as a shock to me like it did to many others around me, but the first two days I couldn’t bring myself to read the news, which I feel was all speculation. Yes, the reason behind his death will always remain a mystery, something that’d be speculated by every person who knew of his existence, or maybe even by those who knew him personally.
But his truth has died with him. His reality is now one with the universe, into which he chose to disappear. He did not wish to disclose his troubles before he left and I feel that needs to be respected. Anything and everything we say or read or discuss is an assumption and we are only disrespecting his choice by doing this.
So much has already been said about him, his lifestyle and personality, but there are very few people on this Earth who would know his reality, that too so closely to understand his decision. I don’t want to sit here and say this is what I believe the reason is. I don’t think I have the right to do that, nor do the millions of people who are going on record to put their points forward. We need to just accept that we will never know his truth and hope that he has received the peace he desired.
Instead, let us make a promise to ourselves and the human race, to have more humanity and not be judgmental, live and let live, and accept and respect people for who they are and where they come from. After all, we never really know what is going on in a person’s mind and heart.
RIP Sushant Singh Rajput