I was stuck in that moment. I couldn’t look forward to anything. It seemed like my life was controlled by someone else. I felt like I was trapped. I just wanted to be myself. I wanted to laugh hard and jump high but all I did was cry.
Yes, with all these lifeless thoughts running in my head, I still tried to act normal every other day.
Amidst all this, one day, I heard that my aunt was had died on the spot in an accident. She was the mother of a seven-month-old cutie pie. Three days passed but that cute boy still didn’t stop crying. His eyes continued to search for something. He didn’t eat either. Seeing all that, I started questioning myself, or maybe I found the answers to all my questions.
I felt that life is the same for everybody, only the problems may be different. You are brought alone into this world. You’re going to die alone. So now, why do you want to ruin it over idiots? We are all a part of His creation. He created all of us to entertain Himself. We’re all just here to play the characters in His drama. So let’s play our roles well and leave.
Trust me, it was very hard to find energy and motivation in the beginning. I started to bring to light all the positives in my life. I became active physically. I somehow always tried to keep my mind occupied. I tried to stay connected with a lot of my friends. I made a list of all the things I could be thankful for. I finally found that deep sense of happiness.
Now, me and my smile have become best friends. Nobody can steal my best friend from me anymore.
Depression is not a sign of weakness, neither an indication of madness. Speak out, my dear. Learn to accept who you are, and only then can you learn to survive.